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Past is a place that is unattainable. It’s a realm of all of our memories that we are not able to relive. So, why do we, as humans, tend to romanticize past relationships? Why do we make our present fulfillments seem worse than they actually are? It seems like this is simply the way we function but why is that so? And more importantly, is there a way to overcome it? It is a well-known post-break-up technique to remind oneself of all the bad qualities of that past partner or of the bad times in the relationships and the reasons why it didn’t work. The idea behind this lies within our survival mechanism (and thus, tendency to remember good times). As we all know, not all of our memories are rainbows and butterflies but many times, our brain will trick us into remembering the good memories, instead of the bad ones. This can be explained by our natural mechanism of survival, which makes us erase the harmful memories. Taking this information into account, it seems logical that we would only

26.11.2019 12:50 AM For the past few days, I've started to walk more often. This morning, for instance, I decided to walk to school instead of taking the metro or the bus -- and this is just one of the instances. I feel like I have a lot of "reflecting" to do, and walking really helps with that. It has this thing of clearing one's mind which I find to be quite therapeutic, and I keep finding more and more peace and tranquility in spending time alone. I feel like I'm able to actually listen to myself. And so, I've started to listen to music more, write more, think more and as I've already said, walk more. In fact, today, as I was walking back home from Spanish class and as I was observing the sky, I suddenly had a thought. I thought about how I was sharing the same sky with those who are far away from me, and this thought gave me a feeling of comfort. I'm not certain why I found it comforting, maybe because I'm really sick of being away from people

Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes, I don't know if I'm genuinely feeling love towards a certain person or if it's just a very temporary emotional state I tend to get in because of a song that affects me, or if sometimes it's the outcome of some other emotion. For instance, it may be possible that I'm actually missing home but then I go onto pouring all those emotions into a superficial state I create, which I then call "missing my ex". I forcedly cry a little bit, look at a few pictures, rethink all of the stuff that we went through, then go ahead and write a few paragraphs. Then, every once in a while, the same procedure repeats itself with slight differences. I don't rely on my "emotions" because one minute I think that I'm missing someone, the other minute I can flirt with another person, and then maybe sleep with a completely different person -- provided they are attractive enough. Or maybe I genuinely lov

13.10.2019 I never thought it could be possible to start falling for someone while still desperately missing someone else, but it just happened, in an instant. And yet again, another romantic/sexual "relationship" (however you would call this) with a clear ending. Why does it have to be this way? This is not what I meant when I said I hated ambiguity. I hate to know that this will be over soon. I hate that even though we might be perfect for each other, this is not the right place and right time. You would think that everything in the universe would come together to put us together in perfect circumstances but I guess that's just a weird fantasy. This is real life and it is really tragic because you don't find something like this all the time. I'm not saying we are the definition of a great romance or something like that. I mean, it hasn't even been 2 weeks since we started to have "a thing". (Although, it is not the duration that matters; sometimes,