emotional unavailability
Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes, I don't know if I'm genuinely feeling love towards a certain person or if it's just a very temporary emotional state I tend to get in because of a song that affects me, or if sometimes it's the outcome of some other emotion. For instance, it may be possible that I'm actually missing home but then I go onto pouring all those emotions into a superficial state I create, which I then call "missing my ex". I forcedly cry a little bit, look at a few pictures, rethink all of the stuff that we went through, then go ahead and write a few paragraphs. Then, every once in a while, the same procedure repeats itself with slight differences. I don't rely on my "emotions" because one minute I think that I'm missing someone, the other minute I can flirt with another person, and then maybe sleep with a completely different person -- provided they are attractive enough. Or maybe I genuinely lov