"yearning", "a rant", "hope"
Yearning September 13, 2018 01:17 AM Missing someone doesn’t mean that you want or should get back together with them. I miss him very intensely and I still love him but I don’t ever want to be with him. The fact that you don’t want that person in your life anymore doesn’t lessen what they meant to you at some point. This is not an easy pill to swallow but it’s how it is. It’s nothing we can’t handle, in fact, I just know in my heart that this process will lead up to greater things in the end. I’m mindfully taking in the experience. I’ve learned a lot and grown so much from the pain, the regret and everything. There’s beauty in pain and there’s beauty in intensity. I’m just glad I’m even feeling something. I’d always been used to numbing myself to cope with the pain I was dealt with in my childhood and I’m actually glad that I’m going through all this agony. Happiness is an illusion, it’s ambiguous and it isn’t safe because it won’t last, nor will anything ever but what about misery? S